Lucifer's Diary

[lucifer damien nighthawk]

Dear.....Diary,

Hey. Lucifer Nighthawk here. Welcome to my little diary. My little safe place from the world. So like everyone has tried to tell me to smile and laugh and be me again. I just don't see how that can even be possible. It was all supposed to be so simple. The werewolf I was fighting was supposed to die and Holly was all saved and I would be just fine. Still her hero. Still protecting that little girl. But life smacks you in the face sometimes. You.....end up dying. And once your dead nothing seems the same. Believe me I'd know. Adero was supposed to be my safe place. My playground. My home. My life. And I'm not supposed to talk about Lucifer's death but his death is like such a huge impact on me, its changing me. I lash out more. I hate everyone deep inside for letting Lucifer Nighthawk die. I don't even know why Lucifer is so angry but he is. I guess because me as a writer is going through his emotions right now and I'm not even sure how to make my baby happy again or make him feel safe and protected. I definitely know one thing though, I'll never ever go through the emotional gauntlet again. 

So like I made this diary thing in the hopes that Lucifer would smile again. and remember who he used to be. And maybe he will remember all the good times he had with Koti Romance during this diary thread. I mean it cant hurt right? Lucifer Nighthawk my beloved dark Angel and my fallen prince, here's to you and Koti Romance and all the people that impacted your life and made you...YOU. Remember who you are. And remember to smile every once in a while. <3

[lucifer damien nighthawk]

Dear Diary,

So the whole point of making this diary was to honor the wonderful people in Lucifer's ife that made him whole again and you cant think about Lucifer, without mentioning the other half of his personality. Koti Romance Baby! TEAM LOTI BABY! I will forever till the day I die be a huge Loti shipper. Koti Romance man was like everything to him at one time. As life goes on though he met a few other people to impact his life but there was no greater couple I shipped like I shipped Loti. I thought they were the end game and Lucifer was at peace and the happiest Ive ever seen him when Koti was around. They had drama like any couple but nothing we wrote was ever planned out. It was all one big huge surprise and it was wonderful. You never knew what was coming next and that last night under the waterfall when Lucifer told Koti she never looked more beautiful than she did then and they kissed....f*ck man it was the greatest moment of Lucifers career. I think I screamed so loud and happily Annabel heard me ll the way from Liverpool. Annabel, my frend, Lot impacted my life in so many ways. Koti Romance made Lucifer the man he is today and he wants to thank you from the bottom of his heart. So thank you. Thank you Koti for loving my monster. He loved you too more than you realized. I hope you know that <3

[lucifer damien nighthawk]

Dear Diary,

The next person I would like to thank and remember is Teresa. I mean in many universes she has had many different names. There was Teresa Belacqua, his best friends wife and Lucifer's guardian angel. Then theres Teresa Dupree his best friend and confidant on here. Lucifer goes through a lot and goes through the motions and often forgets that he can turn to Teresa at any time because he prefers his own company and saving himself. Lucifer always acknowledges that Teresa is everything to him. She was everything to him in that alternate universe and even on here she is everything to him. I think Teresa made him a better man and never questioned the things he did like killing humans. She just always saw him as her best friend and Lucifer apprieciated that more than she knew. Lucifer AND Teresa represent the close friendship me and the real Tessy have. I love her as dearly as Lucifer Nighthawk loves his best friend. Love you Tessy and thank you so much for standing beside me and making us the awesome unstoppable team we are today <3

*TESS*

[lucifer damien nighthawk]

Dear Diary,

My next person I have decided to thank is Probably a very shocking and surprising one. I think it should be Aaron Ryder. I know man, never saw it coming in a million years right? I didn't either. Aaron pisses me off lately. Like I seriously can't stand that arrogant piece of sh*t right now. He's annoying and in my opinion he deserves to be alone for the rest of his life but he's still Aaron. Before every thing changed between us I respected him. I admired him. I liked him. He was sweet and innocent and called me Lucifer and considered me his father figure. He would trust me and come to me for advice and actually had my back. And of course I had his. How could I not? A father always protects his son no matter how angry his son makes him. He always loves him. Sometimes you forget about that and you abandon the people you love. You can't keep protecting your son forever or he won't learn to survive. Hell expect to keep being protected forever and watched over. So I left. I went back home and an enemy of mine attacked and burned my house down with me inside. I almost died. And the scars on my chest are very real and painful. Aaron could care less about the scars.

But to me that's okay. I'll always remember what Aaron meant to me even if he doesn't. I'll always think about him from time to time and remember when he loved me. He was a huge part of my history and I'll never forget him. I love you Aaron Ryder. Even when you don't think so, I always will. Remember that. Never forget that♡

[lucifer damien nighthawk]

Dear Diary,

My next entry is well gonna be mixed both ooc and ic. It's about Artemis. Lucifer's best friend. And my best friend Scotty. I may say I have many best friends but f*ck them all. They will never hold a candle to what Scotty means to me. I have known him for 13 years and he is the greatest best friend I could ever ask for. Artemis means the same Thing to Lucifer. When I wrote out Lucifer's death and the monday after that I texted Scotty the first thing he said to me was how emotional and not crazy it was to feel the way I did. He said Artemis and Lucifer were safe protecting each other in heaven with a bottle of whiskey to share between them reminiscing about life and their creators. They were at peace and to be honest I haven't smiled at anyone since Lucifer died but that made me smile. He brought my smile back and brought Lucifer's smile back too.

I don't think anyone understands us. And no-one will cause why should they? What we have is real. It's unbreakable. He's the realist truest friend I'll ever have and the greatest best friend Lucifer could have. Thank you for all that you do for me. I love you buddy. Forever. ♡